Yesterday Jeff had an afternoon meeting so I left work for a few hours to hang with Finn. To be totally honest, it was probably the worst couple of hours Finn and I have had together in quite a long time- He was over tired, grumpy, and generally not very happy to be running errands with me. We did find a nice park though, I knew that was an instant happy maker for Finn- I am pretty certain he would swing in a swing ALL day long. So we swung and swung and swung, but eventually had to leave to pick up Jeff, and of course, full-blown waterworks ensued. The afternoon was definitely a test of my patience, but also made me reflect on how much has changed in the last year and a half since Finn has joined our lives. Memories that were once so clear are starting to become foggy- Everything seems like yesterday and a hundred years ago at the same time.
The other day I read (and I am so sorry that I can't recall where) that it's such a delicate balance between the excitement and anticipation of children growing older and the sadness and loss of them moving forward... the mix of these polar emotions has always been a difficult one for me, and I'm sure its not going to get any easier as time keeps passing us by, but I do hope this space will be enough to remember all moments- both good and bad- and especially those that move along without a second thought.
I love you, Finn-
even especially on our not-so-blog-worthy days.
xo Mama
